The past still hurts....hurts really bad

Lyrics From Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek

where are we?

what the hell is going on?

the dust has only just begun to fall
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads - heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
(oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears
(hearts)
they were here first

Mmmm whacha say,

Mmmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did

Mmmm whacha say,

Mmmm that its all for the best?
Because it is

Mmmm whacha say?

Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this

whacha say?

Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk,
newspaper word cut outs

speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)

ransom notes keep falling out your mouthmid-sweet talk,
newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)

speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a
(you don't care a)
bit

(hide and seek)

oh no, you don't care a bit

oh no, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)

oh no, you don't care a bit

you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit

I'm getting static

pfttt..pfttt..Is there anyone there? Come in..come in....HELLO???
Calling my brother, come in brother are you there? Hmmm...sure hope
he made it home okay. We are trying to reach him to tell him how
much we love him very much. Well..perhaps through cyber space. Jen

The Order of Things

I placed this poem in my blog the other day. It speaks volumes and I wanted to place it here too:

ORDER OF THINGS

There is a rightful order found
Beyond the things that seem to be,
Something beneath the surface seen
Hidden behind prevalent schemes.

I know this fact through feelings felt
in such relief that come to mind,
When in life I do my bit
And leave results to Spirit's will.

There is a rightful order found
In which Spirit our lives arrange,
Giving us what we rightly earn
With precision in circumstance,

Designed to rhyme and meet somehow
In a rightful order, time, and place.

From the Book - Poems of Life

To my wonderful Brother: where have you been my whole life? We are now the best of friends, and I am blessed to have this relationship with you now at this time in my life. I wish you peace and happiness Pat. All good things come to those who wait. I believe this with all my heart.

Get Well Wishes from all your friends and your Sis

We all can't believe how this surgery has gone for you. We were all so worried about you and wished we could have been by your side. We hope you are on your feet soon, and let everyone pamper you for awhile. You need to recover from all that you've been through! We love you Pat!!

"The Boomerang Effect." You give love and it will come back to you 100 fold. Sometimes in obvious ways, sometimes not so obvious. It is there, it surrounds you everyday.

A message to those that live in LA, MI, PA and NY

Friendship is the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring all right out just as they are, chaff and grain together, certain that a faithful friendly hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping and, with a breath of comfort, blow the rest away.

Source: A Life for a Life, Dinah Mulock Craik (1826-1887)

Remembering

As we walk through life, we see and experience so much. Some things bring us joy and others pain. It's the painful things that draw us to remember a piece of our past, a fragment of time, a tender moment, that washes away our pain. Its through those joyful memories we carry on.

Sue, I pray for you and Pat. You are truely a wonderful person and have lived already through so much, yet you keep your head up and live a good life. God has promised us we will, one day, be reunited with our loved ones. I pray that you are granted this gift and I pray that you will meet again and live in eternal joy.

I send my love.....

Cherish your friends, new and old...

Friendships are what hold this delicate balance called life together...

Nature has to work hard to maintain friendships, as do we.

Nature must hold onto it's friendships, as do we in order to survive.

New friendships are required in nature and they hold everything in balance.

Cherish your friends, they are forever......

Friends....right?

In this world, there are people that think they know you and those that really do. Such a shame so many are hell bent to invent things rather than really find out. Too bad, many dont want to take the time to find out, it's easier not too. So many people that profess to be good, but in fact, are really not. They put on a good show for their friends, but when their friends turn their back they stab away or fill in the blanks with what they wish. Better to gossip than to be gossipped about, right?

The good news is in the end it only really matters what God thinks and knows. I wonder how many people will be asked what they really know v.s. what they say when God asks them at the gates. Keep that in mind the next time. Maybe you could even ask your "friend", and you might be surprised what you find....of course maybe not....because your friend may already know "you".

Let's laugh alittle shall we?

NEVER HEARD CREATION EXPLAINED THIS WAY BEFORE !!!
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In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the Earth and populated the Earth with broccoli, cauliflower and spinach, green and yellow and red vegetables of all kinds, so Man and Woman would live long and healthy lives.
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Then using God's great gifts, Satan created Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream and Krispy Creme Donuts. And Satan said, "You want chocolate with that?" And Man said, "Yes!" and Woman said, "and as long as you're at it, add some sprinkles." And they gained 10 pounds. And Satan smiled.
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And God created the healthful yogurt that Woman might keep the figure that Man found so fair. And Satan brought forth white flour from the wheat, and sugar from the cane and combined them. And Woman went from size 6 to size 14.
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So God said, "Try my fresh green salad." And Satan presented Thousand-Island Dressing, buttery croutons and garlic toast on the side. And Man and Woman unfastened their belts following the repast.
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God then said, "I have sent you heart healthy vegetables and olive oil in which to cook them." And Satan brought forth deep fried fish and chicken-fried steak so big it needed its own platter. And Man gained more weight and his cholesterol went through the roof.
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God then created a light, fluffy white cake, named it "Angel Food Cake," and said, "It is good." Satan then created chocolate cake and named it "Devil's Food."
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God then brought forth running shoes so that His children might lose those extra pounds. And Satan gave cable TV with a remote control so Man would not have to toil changing the channels. And Man and Woman laughed and cried before the flickering blue light and gained pounds.
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Then God brought forth the potato, naturally low in fat and brimming with nutrition. And Satan peeled off the healthful skin and sliced the starchy center into chips and deep-fried them. And Man gained pounds.
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God then gave lean beef so that Man might consume fewer calories and still satisfy his appetite. And Satan created McDonald's and its 99-cent double cheeseburger. Then said, "You want fries with that?" And Man replied, "Yes! And super size them!" And Satan said, "It is good." And Man went into cardiac arrest.
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God sighed and created quadruple bypass surgery.
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Then Satan created HMOs.
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If you don't send this to five old friends right away there will be five fewer people laughing in the world.

She locked you out.....rrrr

How could she lock you out of your own home??? I'm so confused. I thought I knew her better than that. This doesn't make any sense. I'm sorry Brother that you had to face such a thing. I pray that you kept your cool, and that you got to visit with your son. Thank God he is such a bright young man. He will not judge or take sides. I can't wait to see Cleo. I bet she missed you. See you when you return. Keep your spirits up. It WILL get better. Love, neverenoughtime/Jen

You make your sister proud!

In this difficult time in your life, you make your sister proud...

You could have gone like this blockhead holding a drink.

You could have run away from your family and everything that is dear to you.

Instead you have risen above all the pain.

There is hope my Brother. You see this and handle what life has handed to you with grace.

You make your sister proud.

Congratulations on your new job opportunity. Take your new job as you have taken this whole ordeal. Don't get caught up in it. Know when to turn that key in the door and leave your stress and worries behind. Make new friendships and enjoy life here in New York.

You make your sister proud that you are her brother.

and thank you for all your help with the kids and watching the house. It's not a total loss (the house-LOL.) Yes, I'm still sick, but getting better. Nick is home from school today again, and Jake is still heating up like a furnace. Thanks for the Blog and the up close and personal look of the bugger that has got us down (smile.) Jen/neverenoughtime

My beach awaits

My beach is empty, no soul in sight. Footsteps erased, wiped away by the winds and waves of change.

This beach may look beautiful. But, what beauty is there to behold, with no one there to see? Come on by if you care and leave some tracks on me.

I’m a looser baby…..so why don’t ya kill me….

(Well....time for another piece of my mind...or peace of mind..either way)

I know why you don’t….right…I’m a looser, so why waste your time.

Why dirty the barrel, expend the energy lifting the muzzle, waste 20 cents on a perfectly good bullet….

You’ll get free entertainment watching from the sidelines, as I slowly kill myself

Toss in some roofing nails if you get bored or throw a few more knives into my back and watch me squirm even more

There were times it felt like I was in some kind of arena…like the gladiators but without any honor or glory

All these people looking in, no idea who I am or what I’m about…no cares cause its just free and easy entertainment

Don’t be bothered though, I wouldn’t expect you to be; I do have value and live by values and don’t really care that you don’t care

Don’t feel guilty nor feel sorrow for your ignorance or mine, that’s just life right…..ya…right

We get back what we put in…it’s just we aren’t given a good guide where, what, and when to give…good luck…hope you chose well….

So, I am a looser baby, but don’t waste your time trying to kill me…I’ll go when I’m good and ready…maybe a looser…but betting a winner

Rest Here....

Come my friends

refresh yourselves.

Let the cleansing water

wash over you….

Soothing your spirit

Smoothing out the troubles

in your heart.

I send you blessings this spring

of renewal

of rebirthing

of rejuvenation.

Rest here for a moment if you like.

May peace be with you.

Standing on the beach, sand between my toes.

What lays in my future, who will come and go.

The sun beams down upon me, as I raise my head and look At the vast ocean before me, its size which I mistook. I feel so insignificant compared to this great expanse. That difference can I make, will I even be given a chance. I realize then while standing there, that all I have to do, Is listen to my heart and it will pull me through. For strength and inspiration are not material things they come from deep inside of you they give your soul its wings. So whenever you're in doubt and you begin to stray.. Take a look down deep inside and the answer will come your way. If you only believe in yourself you can make your dreams come true. For no one else can do it, the power must come from you

Hello,

I'm Lisa/cheesey Charlie invited me to be a Author in his blog

..and ..I am totally honored and inspired to have the chance!

This is just a little inspirational poem hopefully it lifts you up to realize

that we do have all that we need sometimes

we just need a reminder to realize that its always been right there.

What is Love - Jiddu Krishnamurti

It seems to me that one thing is absolutely necessary and that is passion without motive - passion that is not the result of some commitment or attachment, passion that is not lust. A man who does not know what passion is will never know love because love can come into being only when there is total self-abandonment.

A mind that is seeking is not a passionate mind and to come upon love without seeking it is the only way to find it - to come upon it unknowingly and not as the result of any effort or experience. Such a love, you will find, is not of time; such a love is both personal and impersonal, is both the one and the many. Like a flower that has perfume you can smell it or pass it by. That flower is for everybody and for the one who takes trouble to breathe it deeply and look at it with delight. Whether one is very near in the garden, or very far away, it is the same to the flower because it is full of that perfume and therefore it is sharing with everybody.

Love is something that is new, fresh, alive. It has no yesterday and no tomorrow. It is beyond the turmoil of thought. It is only the innocent mind which knows what love is, and the innocent mind can live in the world which is not innocent. To find this extraordinary thing which man has sought endlessly through sacrifice, through worship, through relationship, through sex, through every form of pleasure and pain, is only possible when thought comes to understand itself and comes naturally to an end. Then love has no opposite, then love has no conflict.

Fools are we.....

These are not all my words.....(thanks Doobie Brothers), but they are my thoughts....

I arrived in her long ago. I'm such a fool, why can't I see. I'm still tryin’ hard to recreate what had yet to be created. One last time she mustered a smile, for our nostalgic tale. I, never finding the the right words, or doing what she needed me to. Only coming near, only to realize, it never really was.

She has a place in my life, only I can't find the right way to show her. As I rise to her apology, anybody else would surely know, I'm really watching her go.

But, what a fool believes, he sees. No wise man has the power to reason away; what seems to be is always better than nothing. Nothing at all just keeps sending me somewhere back in her long ago. A place where I can still believe there’s a place in her life. Clinging to lost hope, that someday, somewhere, she will return.

She had a place in my life, only I couldn't find the right way to show her. As I rise to her apology, anybody else would surely know, I'm really watching her go.

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But, what a fool believes, he sees. No wise man has the power to reason away; what seems to be, is always better than nothing.

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For me, there’s nothing at all, but what a fool believes he sees...“I believed She’d never go away”..............................

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First off.....I'm not blameless...I have made my mistakes....worst mistake is I lost my faith in her. She's not blameless either.....we said forever...no matter...